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I started writing about being a single mom and got so busy running AlphaWomen.com that I didn't have the energy to write anything--and I know I have been sort of absent, with the exception of administrative postings. But lately I have been able to get in touch with my heart again and write. I have so much to write about. Bringing on a few outside helpers has been awesome! It is amazing what happens when you have help.

Today I am feeling a bit exhausted. I haven't been able to sleep this week. I mean I fall asleep but haven't been able to fall into that deep sleep where you wake up drooling all over yourself and your pillow and you feel refreshed and energized. Nope, these past few days of sleep have been like watching movies. Seriously, I have a movie theater constantly playing in my head. I am the star in most movies and there are characters, scenery, sound effects, stunts, even slow motion. Not to mention, I just added back wheat grass shots into my daily routine and some other cleansing paraphernalia and my body is spewing out the garbage. In fact, every morning I walk GC to work and this morning was no exception... well, there was one, a huge one... I had to go! Really bad. I mean I didn't know what was coming down the pipes and I looked at GC and said, I gotta catch a cab home because I'm gonna be in trouble if I don't and it ain't gonna be pretty! He didn't argue with me and hailed a cab quickly. Maybe it was the awful look on my face or how all the color went from my face to my feet as my stomach did somersaults on Michigan Avenue, but whatever it was, he understood my body language.

Needless to say, I made it home in the nick of time! I was happy to be home, too. I think I lost five pounds this morning. That wheatgrass really cleans your pipes out. But in the beginning, while the body is cleansing itself and eliminating all the old junky stuff caught in your pipes, the toxins are pushed back into the blood stream and can leave you feeling a little under the weather with lots of trips to the bathroom. It is worth it though. GC wants to do the Detox class with me in September. His dad died of cancer when he was young and his mom also had it at the same time but she fully recovered from hers. When he shared this story with me it took everything in me to fight back the tears.

So, I am not feeling 100% but I am feeling pretty darn good. I am excited about so many things that I can't shut my mind off. GC introduced me to Su Doku puzzles last night. He is amazing at puzzles. I mean his mind can see things instantly that I would never get in a million years. So, the plan is that right before I go to bed, we do puzzles in order to distract my mind and refocus on something else. I think it worked.

I have been very reluctant to talk about my new relationship because I didn't want to jinx it or talk about something only to have to explain why it didn't work out later.

I have dated GC longer than any other guy. He is the only guy that I can hang out with for days on end. I mean hang out and really hang out with. I just like being with him. I truly enjoy his friendship and his company. Since we have been dating, we have spent every weekend together, save one or two. The more I get to know him, the more I fall for him, and the harder I fall for him. He is so not perfect, but he is perfect for me.

There were a few times when I just didn't think it was going to work. I just thought we were not right for one another and I even tried to set him up with my friend Stacy. He was astounded at this. At this point in my life, I know what I want and what I am willing to accept or embrace at this stage and, well, there were just some things that were driving me nuts.

Without getting into all the details, most recently I was fed up with a few things he was doing. I am sure he wasn't doing them intentionally, I really think that is just who he is and in the right circumstances those abilities come in very handy and I find them useful, JUST NOT WHEN I AM THE FOCUS. I tried to tell him and for whatever reason he just wasn't hearing me and I snapped and started to withdraw from the relationship. Now I really like this guy. He is grade-A, premium meat. He is a wonderful human being and all of my friends, family and anyone who meets him LOVES him. Exactly the reason why I wanted to set him up with my girlfriend. Needless to say, we worked all those things out.

Well, I had my walking shoes on and was saying my goodbyes and he was stunned at why I was so upset. Duh, you weren't listening to me. Well, I didn't hold back, I just let loose what I thought and felt and for whatever reason I couldn't shake him. I kept thinking why is this guy following me home. Why is he following me to Starbucks, I just plastered him to the wall and he still wants to have a coffee with me. Certainly we will get a cup of coffee and he will go home when I we walk to my house. NOTHING DOING! He walked me all the way up to my house and proceeded to follow me in, sit on the couch and something amazing and wonderful happened... he really talked to me. We had the best two-hour conversation, a real conversation, and I think we both finally "got" each other.

We proceeded to have the most fantastic weekend ever. He opened up his heart and we talked about the things that really mattered to both of us and what we would need to make it really work moving forward.

All I can think about is that if GC wouldn't have insisted and been persistent on walking me home, listening patiently while I bitched him out the entire walk from his house to my house, followed me in to Starbucks for a coffee and then followed me upstairs to my house where we talked for hours and the "real" beginning of our friendship and relationship started...I wouldn't be sharing this story with you.

I laugh at it now because it truly is a very funny story. Really all I needed was for him to hear me and really listen to me and that he finally got. Something happened that day and I can't stop thinking about him. I am pretty sure that I am completely falling head-over-heels for him. My heart is so hooked. I think about him, I see him in my future, I see him in my life for a long time.

I have never known something like this. He gets me. He takes care of me in ways that I wouldn't let anyone. He is always thinking about me in different ways and is always looking for different ways to stimulate me mentally, challenge me, and keep things exciting and interesting between us. He knows I need that because my mind thrives on interesting. He understands me better than anyone. What started as a little tiny flicker of chemistry is turning into a bright, hot, brilliant flame which I hope burns for many years to come.

The other day we were listening to the radio and this song came on. From the moment I heard it I knew it would be our song. It is by Landon Pigg and it is called: "Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop"

This is the first time in my life where I have fallen for the right person and never imagined it would turn out to be like this.